I wanna sleep and never wake up

It's so painful it's hurting ! What can I do ? Change and wait for you to forgive me ? Now you giving me a chance to change but you are treating me real cold ): it's my fault all the bullshit I'm doing causes all this shit from happening ! Now even your friend 'hate' me . I know she is tweeting about me I know . ):
Should spam assignment for myself preventing myself for thinking too much .