School starts!

Oh well decided to go back to sec 5 and do my o levels Ofcause it's a huge challenge for me. From Normal technical to Normal academic and now express stream! And I don't know why I choose to go up to sec 5 maybe it's because I can't get into the course I want in ITE so ya my last route is sec 5 and able to ermmm challenge myself. It's only the first day and I feel the pressure there. Maybe I want get this chance to prove to people that I can do it although I'm a bad student lousy conduct but Ofcause I have change to a better student now. Maybe? Hahaha I'm doubting myself. Erm, family have no opinion about what I have choose can see that they are worried about my decision but well I will do your guys proud okay I promise to do my best! And my dearest boy he is very supportive and respect my decision. He is also understands that I might neglect him and maybe drift but he told me 'Don't worry I'll be here no matter what just focus and study hard and don't get involve in any troubles'. (': Thankyou boy for always being there for me through my ups and downs. Able to tolerate my temper and nonsense!

This year my new year resolution is: Focus, balance and achieve! Focus on my studies. Have a balance between study and rest and achieve what I want! So wish me luck and I believe I can! result

Last day of 2012 .

I'm at home the whole day cause I don't want to squeeze with other people. Wanted to go town and countdown with my boy but he is working. Might be going to drink with my pals but then don't know should I not. Anyways I'm watching running man laughing my lungs out. Okay should update later? Maybe.

What I can do I have already done.

Hey peeps, using my boyfriend's macbook to blog again. Hmmm, having moodswing this few days and I dont know the reason why. I will cherish every moment with you and ya I may be demanding sometimes Who won't demand? cause we are only human! But im gonna change not that old me anymore. But my heart is still the same. I get jealous because I am afraid someone is going to make you happier then I do. Everyday is a new chapter a never ending story till death hits us and boom there goes our life. So cherish every little moment you have with your family friends and love ones. Because you will not know when death will hit you and just gone like that. Live your life to the fullest! Boy, iloveyou always. Love me just me? 

And ya thats my sissy chitchat with her awhile just now and ya going to sleep now! Goodnight peeps!

My love.

At bby's house now using his mac while he listen to his music! Still very puzzled should I go to sec 5. How :( So if I go traineeship I will be working 5 days at the hotel's kitchen,1 school day and 1 off day. I think i'll be god damn tired by the time i finish my course but I really dont want to waste anymore time because i want to earn money asap and get nearer to the course hospitality. Dearest is singing while i type why is he so funny! He is now reading what im typing and correcting my english!

What goes around comes around

Today is my off day! And I'm thinking of going sec 5 or higher nitech! This decision is so hard. Friends of mine ask me to go sec 5 cause then course I want is early childhood but I don't think I could manage sec 5 so instead I wanna go higher nitech and get business studies. But what if I can't get into that course .. hmmm how? ! ): so puzzled. Just a short post for today I'm just too tired gonna take a nap now!

How to save a life.

Been working and working this few weeks or maybe months. Money always seems not enough for me. So I guess I shouldn't think of getting things I want. Have to and need to save up. A few colleague of mine are all so funny example yulin junheng ina jingmao (Christina) yumeng Shuanghui all of them Damn funny one. Almost all very joker.

And where did I go wrong?

Will it start again?

Hmmm, I really hope it will not happen again. 爱一个人就好好的爱. Got so difficult? Loads of things running through my mind. Insecurity is eating me up. What is wrong with me?! 心好烦呀! They say I'm not scare or anything but fail when it comes to love.
Why am I like that? Because I have no confidence? Am I not good enough? Fuck insecurity really! And I don't like to be the same as others. Anyway, times are bad and I've got bills to pay. Working and working this few weeks! Tiring but I like the feeling of being occupied. Colleague from Mitch and Marc, Crabtree & Evelyn are all so funny! They brighten up my days during work! Play pranks on junheng and keep turning the musical box to irritate yulin didn't take any pictures of them and ya should do it tomorrow currently having off for 3days and today is the third day. Finally can cuddle in my bed and rest!