I wanna sleep and never wake up

It's so painful it's hurting ! What can I do ? Change and wait for you to forgive me ? Now you giving me a chance to change but you are treating me real cold ): it's my fault all the bullshit I'm doing causes all this shit from happening ! Now even your friend 'hate' me . I know she is tweeting about me I know . ):
Should spam assignment for myself preventing myself for thinking too much .

Hope for the better

Today no let's put it yesterday . Its was okay before evening but things turn out kinda of bad ): sean and me quarreled all thanks to my stupid attitude . Things got worst when he is trying to avoid or ignore me . I really don't want things to turn out like that it is really painful . He is really cold to me ahhh it hurts . Who wants to see her love ones treating her like this . Anyway, things somehow get better a little but he is still unwillingly to meet me ! Ermmm, should give him sometime . For me reflected many thousand times it's time for me to change my attitude . It's my last chance gonna grab hold it !

To Sean : Baby, in really sorry to bring so much unwanted trouble to you as I promised you it won't happen again trust me for the last time !

You never once say that.

Got the feel to start blogging again although it's been year since I last blogged . So I should start with school life . Okay so School was stressful but manageable already used to the busy timetable . Ofcause to most of the upper secondary students a holiday break time is like the only time you could really sleep well uh.

It's has been 5 month since I'm with Sean (: we go through a lot of thing and sometimes quarrel sometimes laugh . Rather scare if one day he just gone like that how ? As I know it won't happen .